I just need someone to listen, and not judge. Just hear me out, theres so much shit thats happening, i dont know how to handle it. I hate this feeling, i hate feeling alone, and feeling like no one cares & I HATE not being myself because of all this. Its the kind of feeling where you think that if you disappered tomorrow, no one would notice, and im so sick of it. I hate crying and not knowing why, i hate how when everything is going right, this feeling comes back to me and it fucks everything up. Thats why i hate being by myself, cause all these feelings just race through my mind, i wish someone could just listen to me and not give me some pity party or anything, just hear me out, dont feel bad for me…i just need someone to understand.
Have you ever laid on your bed at night, and just cried? Cried because you’re ugly. Because you’re not good enough. You counted all your flaws from head to toe, to punish and feel worse about yourself. Cried because the comments people blurt out, actually hurt your feelings. You don’t want to be a burden, so you bottled it all up. Around people, you’re the happiest ray of sun shine. But nobody knows, that at night when you’re alone, you break down and just cry.
